Saturday, January 31, 2009

Musings of the New Year

Wow, haven't posted since October 1st. Not that I haven't had anything to say, I just haven't said it. But someone told me they missed my musing , however rambling they may be. So here I am again. 2008 rolled out like a lion. I managed 2 plane trips in November - one to Florida to visit my friends and had a great time and one to London to visit my baby girl. We spent Thanksgiving there and of course I had a cold. I couldn't go to Europe without one, it just wouldn't be right.

I fell in love with, (okay, okay, I admit it, I called her dog ugly) Berlina puppy. The little miniature dappled black and tan daschund puppy they have. We went to training class with them and when she was in school Alan and I or just Alan one day walked Berlina in the park. The "park" is Battersea Park in London. Full of ponds and in the summer, you can even rent paddle boats. It is very large and I was taken to all of Alyssa's favorite spots. The tree behind her is a "Strawberry Tree". Yes a tree, not a bush or plant and it does not grow strawberries. It had a sign - some type of hybrid. They have quite a few unique trees in the park. This is her favorite. She came home for Christmas and it was wonderful. She is now back at school in the middle of her second year of the program. She may stay through the summer months - and roll right into her third year for completion.

But January rolled in and here we are. I was talking to a work colleague I had not seen in a while last week and we exchanged the usual pleasantries, "how are your kids, how old are they now, what are they doing?" etc. We talked about hers in pre-school and mine in London. She told me how she lived a time in California and just missed her mom so much she came home after 2 years. She said "sometimes there is just no replacing mom, even with a phone call". And, so I realize how short my time is with my mom. She continues to decline in hospice care. The lack of oxygen to her brain causes her to be confused at times. But overall her mind is sharp. I want to remember the fun times for my children while they are still fresh in my mind. Some days, it is hard. This song keeps playing on my IPOD - like a bruise you have to press. "The Best Day" by Taylor Swift. There are two areas of the lyrics I find poignant - the chorus and an area where she talks about a bad day at school and how growing up (she is 19 in real life now) comes the knowledge of how much our parents love us no matter what.

I don't who I'm going to talk to now at school
I know I'm laughing on the car ride home with you
I don't know how long it's going to take to feel ok,
but I had the best day with you today.

Now I know why the trees change in the fall
I know you were on my side even when I was wrong
and I love you for giving me your eyes
staying back and watching me shine and
I did not know if you knew
so I'm taking this chance to say
That I had the best day with you today.


So from time to time you may find a memory story here - not every story had a "successful" ending, but my parents were there for me each step of the way. And here I am today, successful with 3 great kids. I have my own foibles - they make me unique and to a large part, I too have my parents to thank for those.

Thank you mom and dad. I love you.

Four Red Dresses

I was 14 years old and used to going to work with my mom and watching her. She was a "keypunch operator". She had been doing this job since I was old enough to have memories. The cards would whiz by in the machine. I have to wonder how many fingers were lost getting those cards out. When RJ, my little brother was born in 1972, the company moved a machine into our house. My mom always held higher positions. She was the fastest puncher I think ever. I remember being 9 years old, sitting in the dining room watching her work at 9 at night. This was breaking new ground - to move a large machine into a home so a new mom could stay home with her kids. So when I was 14 she decided I should learn how to keypunch, which had just moved into the "data processing realm" but still held onto the term key punching. They had "floppy disks" that were the size of half the desk that you opened a hatch on the edge of the desk and slid the disk in. Entered a few codes and then started entering the jobs of the day. The company approved hiring me part-time and I received an official work permit. Everyone was paid an hourly wage at this job. My highest hourly wage was $4.00. I learned a trade for life. In High School they mandated typing. I would have everything typed within minutes of the assignment while my classmates were still pecking out the keys. Finally, the teacher just gave me a pass to the library for the practice sessions.

That company closed and I picked up a another keypunch job. It "paid on production" the faster you typed and entered the data the more you were paid. But it had to be accurate. After you entered the data, the work went to the checker and your errors were marked and your pay was reduced. You learned to be accurate. To even be hired you had to have a minimum keystroke of 10,000 strokes per hour. I had reached 12 or 13,000 per hour after accuracy checks. Computers measured everything. Pay was uneven though, a cold could reduce your speed, the company having less work the day you worked, and finally this company closed too. I fond other part-time work in retail and waitressing over my teen years.

At age 19, I applied for a major automotive company in their corporate offices. The job entailed keypunching and cataloging the computer tapes that came from the work. I did not have an extensive wardrobe. It was mainly jeans and t-shirts. But I had one dress I had bought for something. I knew I needed a dress. I was thin, but not evenly proportioned. Dresses did not fit me well. Mom always said I could wear Gucci and look like K-Mart, so she would sew my clothes for me to get a better fit. (She was an expert seamstress and made my first wedding gown and all attendants dresses).

So I had this one store bought dress. It was a deep red with a white collar. When I arrived, the look on the interviewer's face was priceless. I still remember it today, and it took me 20 years to say it was priceless. The interviewer was a male in his mid 40's and was antagonistic for the whole interview. At one point he insisted I tell him what letter was above the letter P on the keyboard (it is not the - if you look at your keyboard - it was different on keyboarding keyboards). I told him I never look at a keyboard, however, would be glad to test into the position. He finally gave me the answer as to what was above the "P". I explained to him that good keyboarders never looked at a keyboard. They should know the positions of the alpha keys, but recall of each character was not necessary, it was instinctive. I don't think this man could have done the job himself. It was a bad interview and I did not get the job. I ended up applying for and working for Wickes Credit Corporation where I learned many things about corporate life; moving around positions, losing a promotion in one area and finding out after a promotion to bill collector that there was one job in the world I did not want to do.

Mom was there for me when I came home from the interview - the first time I had been devastated by the establishment and treatment in corporate America. She told me how to dust myself off and try again. She suggested I not wear red again.

Second Red Dress:

Alan and I took a trip to Lake Geneva, Wi and stayed at the Hilton. (Now a condo unit). I didn't have anything to wear for this trip. (not unusual for me as a single mom with no money). So my friend Dawn lent me her red patchwork dress, size 8 or 10 (sigh). It was April 1992 but still really cold in Wisconsin. This dress had long sleeves and finally I had a dress that looked decent on me. She insisted I take it for the weekend. Alan took me on a horse-drawn carriage ride. That night he told me he loved me. Wow. He still has a picture of me in that red patchwork dress.


Third Red Dress:

At age 28, Alan asked me to be his wife. Wow, I had vowed to never remarry, and had 2 small children - he had 1. But the chemistry and love between us. I jumped. I said yes. We held a small church wedding and a pizza party for family and close friends. It was perfect. The minister wore an eye patch. The bride wore a red dress. Wait - the bride wore RED! I looked everywhere for a dress and they all looked hideous on me. I finally found this red dress combination silky rayon item. It looked good on me (in comparison to all other dresses) and we (friends and I) bought it. Mom looked doubtfully at it when I came home with it for the wedding. But the wedding was just days away at this point so it would have to do. We celebrated 16 years last October - so yay for the red dress.

Fourth Red Dress:

So flash forward oh 5 years. AJ was graduating from middle school and Rich and Aly in 4th and 6th grade. I had been elected to our local school board for a few years by then. I think at times it was somewhat hard on the kids having a mom on the Board. The school color for the middle school was a nice bright red. I happened to be shopping at one of the yearly clearance sales and found a nice shirt-waist dress at a Department Store marked down from $100 to $27. It was a solid dark/bright red. As I would be handing out diplomas to the 8th graders, it was perfect. I probably looked like a giant tomato with a head on stage (remember, dresses and my 5'3 unporportioned frame) , but I wore that dress for the years I was on the board at every graduation. This time I had matching red pumps! I had learned something about matching colors over the years. I gave it away when I came off the school board. Mom chuckled when she saw the red dress. There was something with me and red.

Today, when you ask Alyssa what her favorite color is, she will tell you red. When I didn't get that job at 19, I was so disappointed. If you asked me what the future held, I couldn't tell you. I just knew someone had looked at me and found me unworthy for that position. It was a decision made by the quality of my clothes. But that didn't stop me from trying again (the Wickes job, and other jobs since). My message - self worth has to be based on what you feel inside and you should never let someone else's personal judgement bring you down. I wish you all the best today and tomorrow.

Wednesday, October 01, 2008

Mazie Gets A Present

A friend dropped off a present for Mazie this afternoon. I put them together and the fun began. She ran in and out and managed to tip it up on so that it was up and down and then on the floor side-by-side. Now the "Fat One" (Neffie) is wondering if she will fit inside it. She stuck her head in and then backed out - but we think she will get brave by tomorrow. Mazie sends her thanks for the cubes!

Friday, August 22, 2008

Cedarburg

Alan's Birthday found us wandering about Cedarburg, Wisconsin after having lunch at a German Festival. We then traveled to Cedarburg and took a tour of the Cedarburg Winery. What was amazing was that it used to be a woolen factory and until the 1960's (or so) had a tunnel that went under the street to the building on the other side. It was used to hide people at certain times in American history. My fanciful imagination imagines it was used during prohibition (long before it was a winery). Alan was enthralled with the idea of becoming a home wine brewer. Out basement would probably be the perfect year round temperature. The process on the other hand - not so easy, and who would drink the wine? But it was very cool. I mean, thinking about how they made wines a hundred years ago and got the yeast mixture to add to it. It was very interesting.

After the tour we went on to do our most favorite activity - Ice cream. I had a sundae - Alan had a float. Behind Alan was a full candy display. It took me back to the days when I was little and my grandma bought me chocolate stars every time we went to the Department store. I gazed at the stars and was instantly transported to 1970, 1971, 1972 at Randhurst Mall. A very nostalgic day. It was very nice.

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

Long drives and nights out at the local WalMart

I have settled in nicely. The drive to work is long, but my satellite radio keeps me good company. I may need a new one soon. It seems to have antenna issues - but then I switch to my Ipod - the best of both worlds. I especially love all the news feeds - I get Fox News (my favorite) and CNN. Then there is the comedy channels to make me laugh as I get closer to work. I am almost guaranteed to come in with a smile no matter how bad the construction traffic is (and it is bad).

Just once I got stopped by a train and I captured this picture with my camera. Until I get to the highway, the scenery is just beautiful. I can't complain. I bet even the snow will be pretty, slipping and sliding all the way in.

Most of our nights out this summer involved going to places in the Village, concerts on the Square, and our favorite weekly event - the nightly trip to the large Walmart the next town over. Some weekends we try to figure out what to do and go hang out at the Walmart just for fun (seriously). Last night was groceries and appliances. Alan started to do the speed walk through the store when he realized it was 7pm. He was missing Rat Patrol - an old favorite of his available on our cable channel. So at the checkout he abandoned me to get the car and have it waiting for a quick get-away.

Our check-out clerk, young college student, easy on the eye (wink wink) gave me a quizzical look. I said "oh, we have a hot date." He asked what. I laughed and said TV - Rat Patrol is on. He then had to ask "What is Rat Patrol". I told him he was obviously too young to remember that show. I said, you know, this is a day I realized I married my father. And he gave me this shocked look. I said oh, just wait, 20 years into marriage you'll look at your wife and realize you married your mother. He said, "oh, oh, that is sooo sooo Freudian - I don't think so". I said sure you will. That one out there (and I pointed to the exit) listens to Sinatra all the way to Minnesota until I am crazy. 10 hours of Sinatra. He then says "I love Frank, I fall asleep to him". I said "Are you sure you aren't his son?" I then thanked him for my groceries and made a graceful exit (for once). He is probably still trying to figure out who to marry so she is not like his mother! I wish I could put the shocked tone of his voice into this writing!

Well, home I am for the night and we need to clean, do laundry, clean piggers cage and all those good things. But I just want to take a nap. Maybe the nap will win. Ciao!

Thursday, August 07, 2008

Men and Electronics Stores

We did the final move yesterday (Wednesday, 8/6). The movers moved the family room furniture that had been taking up living room space into the basement (despite it not being finished), which was nice because it was heavy as can be. Saturday the new carpeting gets installed and hopefully the Illinois House will sell soon.

The TV for the Living Room (27") takes a long time to turn on. It is 15 years old and so a decision was made to replace it with a thiner, sleeker version. So, off to our favorite store, Best Buy. Now time to decide LCD or Plasma, 720p, 1080p. Lots of choices and we haven't even come to size. We settled on 1080p first. Now for size. I voted for 42". The living room is not that big. It would look fine. Alan wanted the 46". Now came the pleading (Imagine a 3 year old in the cereal aisle). Oh, honey, look at the difference, don't you WANT the 46", please, please, please. Then plasma or LCD. LCD is better in sunny rooms (our Living Room is sunny), but Plasma will hold up better to the slobbery dog due to the glass front. So I caved. 46" plasma Panasonic. Settled. Then the bad news. We don't carry that one in this store. So now we had to make another choice. I was pushing for the 42" and hubby said, lets check on the Samsung 46" LCD. While the guy went to check, we noticed it was the only one NOT ON SALE. Almost $1900 for that one. So off the list that one came.

Then, there it was, THE ONE. The ONE HE HAD TO HAVE. Was it 42" - of course not. Was it an LCD - of course not. Was it a 46". Laughable. IT, the dream TV for our little living room was a 50" Plasma Panasonic TV. 20,000 to 1 ratio, 1080p, and so many good things, my head was spinning with "is he insane". Now comes the pleading again. Oh look honey, it is so great, look look look, please, please please - it's cheaper than the Samsung. I whipped out the Iphone and showed him the little living room. NAH. He wasn't buying it. So home it came. We spent the rest of the night setting it up and all he could do is say wow.... Wow.... WOW. He threatened to call in sick today - just to enjoy it. But he didn't.

Now we just have to build the enclosed DVD stand instead of the messy one. I shall take great pleasure in watching Big Brother tonight as one of the first full TV shows on it. And that is why he is never going to Best Buy again.

Monday, July 14, 2008

She Demands All

Mazie must have Siamese in her. She meows constantly. When you get her to sleep you can see the triangular shape of her face. She demands everyone's food. When we walk into the kitchen she races to meet us there - just in case there may be food. I want to know how she understands people food. I ate some cheetoes last night and she lost her mind. When I brushed her away and touched my shirt - she decided to try and suck the cheetoe cheese off my shirt. But I am having lots of fun with her. We especially enjoy watching her try and get to Q's food. She has absolutely no fear of him - he will be eating and she will sneak her paw into his bowl and grab out a piece of canned food. Then carry it to her plate of cat food. Any other dog and she would be part of dinner.

Then there is the matter of Charlie - he seems to really enjoy her on top of his cage and gets upset when she leaves. That is until she gets older and decides he is food too. For now, she is still more interested in the dangling toys. Let's hope her interests stay there!

Hoping to get some sleep tonight. Still like having a toddler in the house. We are tired! She may go back to the cat room tonight!

Tuesday, July 08, 2008

Mazie Discovers Charlie

The name is settled. Mazie - shortened for Amazing Grace. I ended up singing it to her last night again to calm her down during a storm and she settled in and slept in my arms. Amazing Grace soothes her. Maybe because the song soothes me. For too many reasons, she just is not "Grace" or "Gracie", but Mazie fits her. She has a bad case of the kitten crazies. She runs around like a banshee! She meows / talks all the time and is always asking for food. She has identified the kitchen with canned cat food and thinks she should get it each time we walk in there. I am trying to explain what the meaning of hard food is.

Then she discovered how to get on top of Charlie's cage. She likes the hanging toys Alan put in there. The first time she stood against it Charlie put his little paws on the cage and nosed her back. Now she just heads straight to the top of the cage. We have to find a way to keep her off before she gets bigger. She is sure full of energy.

Poor Neffie doesn't know if she is coming or going. Mazie chases her around the house and Neffie has refined her hissing to a new evil long drawn out tone. It stops Mazie in mid double-leg up prance. Hopefully we'll catch a picture. For now, Mazie spends her nights in the green room for her own protection, but when we are home she gets the run of the house - and we get some exercise. Stay tuned for further.

Sunday, July 06, 2008

She Has A Name - Sorta

Finding a name has been tough. We went through Indie (Independence Day) - but that really did not suit her. She has the kitten crazies, but loves people. So next we tried a variety of names, none of which fit. That left us Zoe and Winnie. We settled on Winnie for about 8 hours. Then Kevin came to visit and she is Lil Roo. Roo fits her perfectly, the only problem is we call Q "puppa-roos" and he comes when we call Roo. Maybe she will learn her name that way. We call her, he comes. But then Alyssa weighed in. Alyssa said we can't call her Roo - Q is the one and only Roo (and Lil Roo is a boy in the Winnie The Pooh books anyway - didn't I know anything). So we are now stuck between Winnie and Pepsi. Leaning towards Pepsi. We should have a firm settlement by tomorrow morning - but I am not holding my breath.

She has settled in. She does not like being confined to the Winnie The Pooh room anymore. It is her comfort zone - but she really wants out into the living areas. She is quite small for her age. They found her Mid-April so that puts her at 10-12 weeks old. But at just 2.1 pounds and very thin and lanky, she needs to get some weight on her before next shots in 3 weeks. She loves Q's food and the plan to feed everyone together is working - so well - that she won't eat in her bedroom. Q still has a little of the chase instinct going on - and Neffie is just permanently in a bad state of mind. She finally ate with her last night, then proceeded to hiss and growl at the kitten during the last bites of dinner. This morning Neffie refused to eat breakfast with her at al. So adjustment is coming slowly. She loves to chew cords. I have her room all unplugged except for 2 necessary plugs and there is stuff in front of them. I need to pick up bitter apple before she can have the run of the house. She is very persistent - with very sharp teeth. I hope it works!

Saturday, June 28, 2008

New Baby Kitten

We had a busy morning. A very unhappy Neffie went to the vet for shots. She sat very nicely on the table and had her nails clipped. But she eyeballed the 3 injection needles and I could see the processing in her mind (those are for ME?!) Then off to home for her and off to the shelter for us.

Neffie has seemed generally okay since Peri died, but the one thing that has not changed is that every day she saves half her wet food for Peri. She waits for Peri to come and after an hour, she comes back and eats the remainder. It is actually very sad. So we have decided to get a kitten. I had thought of going to a breeder, but decided to get one from the shelter. I forgot how much shelters break my heart. The dogs there were so sad. Many turned in by their owners - one was a pair of beagles - an older and younger dog. I wanted to bring them home. I know Q will love a kitten, but a pair of beagles would push his old man buttons!

So initially, I wanted a kitten from the "Flintstones". http://www.lakelandanimalshelter.org/kittenseason.html
Scroll to the middle to see the litter).

But in the end, it was Rosy who stole our hearts. She never stopped purring - she was very content to snuggle with Alan and me. I think she will do fine. She was not ready to come home today - she had just been spayed. So she comes home Thursday July 3rd.

Rosy needs a new name! We are thinking Gunnie (as in Gunnery Sergeant). But Alyssa said we just can't call her Gunnie. We haven't decided yet on a name. Let us know any thoughts you have!

Stay tuned for updates! The picture came from the shelter. Please support your local shelter!